Purgatory

Abstract

Usually I do not have any dreams. Instead, when I wake up I often have the feeling that I have been somewhere very far away where matters are understood more clearly than in a waking state. Often I feel as if I am awakening for a given task — in order to put down on paper something that was an idea in my mind when I regained consciousness. I have got the basic idea for much writing at just such a moment. It is like a given task, and when I begin to work, I can feel that I am almost like an instrument which writes down on paper ideas which actually are not my own at all. I have begun increasingly to write in the small hours, when I have the feeling that I am continuing to do what I was doing before I awoke.