Grappling with Gender Dysphoria

  • Joseph N. GohEmail author
Part of the Gender, Sexualities and Culture in Asia book series (GSCA)


This chapter underscores the reality that the becomings of Malaysian trans men are often marked by profound experiences of bodily ambivalence and dissatisfaction. As this Chapter narrates, trans men are often distressed by the dissonance they see between a masculine identity and a perceived female body, the inconvenience and discomfort of chest binding, the fear of being exposed or thought of as ersatz men through tactile connections, and the persistence of emotional upheavals. The Gender Dysphoria which they experience is encountered and addressed in myriad ways. Some coping strategies include blending into society so as to achieve gender invisibility and distancing from society to avoid potential conflicts in relation to gender identity.


Binding Body Gender Dysphoria Suicidal ideation 


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  1. 1.School of Arts and Social SciencesMonash University MalaysiaBandar Sunway, SelangorMalaysia

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