My Days of Counting Are Numbered
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My daughter, Sydney, was diagnosed with Smith-Magenis syndrome (SMS) on Wednesday September 5, 2007 at 11:30am. I am able to be that precise because it is a date and time that will forever be imprinted on my brain. I have been counting the days ever since as if the diagnosis will disappear if I simply wait long enough. In fact, I have been counting a lot of things ever since that date. Time itself has taken on new meaning for me and I am not sure that it has been a healthy or productive change.
For the past 3 years I have written a short blog on the “diagnosis anniversary”. It has been helpful and even therapeutic in many ways particularly to document or journal how far I have come and recognize and accept how far I still have to go. I am no longer confident it is therapeutic for me to continue to count the days and years that SMS has been a part of my life. I am starting to feel it may be more beneficial to focus on what Sydney has accomplished, what our family has overcome, what our...